entry #15 // bicycles are cool (5/5/26) -megami

i got given a bike a few days ago now. theyre pretty cool i think. the gears on this one are locked up to hell and back but hopefully ill be able to free it and be able to ride in different gears soon enough. ive been going uphill in 5th gear (not recommended) and it tires me out so much lol.. im going out to get some equipment soon and then ill be able to leave my house at will. thank god for that.

entry #14 // to abandon the past (30/4/26) -myrena

ah.. late night thoughts have kept my mind busy now!! my current vibe is the feeling of completely separating my past self's issues (certain friendships and such) and preferring to strictly focus on the future and on me more than anyone else. admittedly i get pushed around a lot and that is my fault for not sticking up for myself more, so i would like to actually be someone now instead of being what people want me to be. thanks for teaching me though ^^

entry #13 // memory recall (26/4/26) -kita

hey!! my memory is kind of recovering slowly.. i havent been able to think so clearly in what feels like forever.. its given me a bit of a headache but i should be able to power through this ^w^ hopefully not too much longer until i feel like i can start doing things again hehe.. we will see how that goes u~u

entry #12 // mind's fortress (21/4/26) -unknown

my memory is very dead right now.. it should come back eventually, but right now my mind is a prison. new forza game soon i suppose which should be fun.. its supposed to be rather linear and stuff but its also going to take up a lot of my time so i want to get my jtoh projects done before i try to take on forza.. its also a lot of money oh my gosh @.@

entry #11 // searing headache (18/4/26) -megami

goodness gracious, this headache ive had over the past couple days has been absolutely awful.. but its okay! i havent updated this in a while, but basically i havent been doing too much. ive finally got better internet and im going to try playing some more games later on, but really all i want right now is to enjoy company with my closest friends, because i feel like im just bad at responding or talking in general.. i dont really know how to fix that though, so we'll see..

entry #10 // final front (13/4/26) -unknown

i feel awfully weird this morning. im still very anxious because there's another wave of rain coming (should be the last one?) but im generally doing a bit better. i started fantasizing about running a maid cafe too.. i would really like that i think that is a very distant future.. i also had coffee today and forgot the sugar and it tasted horrible x3

entry #9 // the cyclone is in my head (13/4/26) -eve

the storm PTSD has really kicked in even though there's barely anything to be worried about, i miss my friends, tonight just feels so draining. i hope no one is worried, but i understand if that is the case. generally also just feeling very dysphoric, like an eldritch beast forced to watch its world crumble around it slowly but certainly. tomorrow will be another day though. the cyclone is supposed to continue for a bit longer, but i will try to hold myself together. just need a bit of help, is all..

entry #8 // it's here today (12/4/26) -m?pha

the cyclone is supposed to arrive today.. it's labelled as a category 2, but could move to a category 3.. im very scared and i really wish i could hug something but even my plushies feel soulless right now.. i don't know what im supposed to do at this point, other than pray for my life that nothing happens.. if im not contactable for a couple days though, it's probably knocked out my power and ill be crying in bed until it comes back..

entry #7 // bracing for impact (8/4/26) -m?pha

heard there's a cyclone coming on the weekend.. im hoping nothing bad happens but as per usual, i am a little scared!! i think i might have genuine ptsd from a storm back in 2022 that left me for 3 days with no power/reception and ended up with me being paralyzed out of sickness for a long time after that happened.. um but hopefully it will be okay!! just need to stop thinking about it..

entry #6 // the convention (6/4/26) -grace

went out to a convention with some friends yesterday (hence why no log for apr 5..) and it was fun!! the whole thing was kind of crowded.. i got a hug from a girl in a splatoon outfit and it was so nice!! she was really tall so it was a bit awkward.. my friends also did not question my outfit for once which feels amazing to me.. i hope i can attend more stuff like this in the future..

entry #5 // trying to enjoy things (4/4/26) -rei

i decided to play minecraft today.. i forgot how nice the grind feels sometimes to finally get something done.. i made a biggg crimson forest in the overworld and i killed the dragon and got an elytra which took me like 4 hours.. but its nice to feel like i at least have a purpose sometimes.. i hope i can do more things when i wake up, but it's 1am.. i dont think i will be waking up for a while x3

entry #4 // that night (3/4/26) -rei

last night was quite enjoyable.. i spent the night talking to some random people who kind of helped my mood which was nice, though i still don't feel like i fully fit in with them. they let me join a goofy emote server and honestly i feel kind of bad that i used to be kind of mad at them for literally no reason at all (they just gave me that closed friendgroup vibe i guess?) but i feel a bit more stable now.. i hope they'll accept me and understand that im trying my best mentally ^w^ very nice people.. yay!

entry #3 // going public again (2/4/26) -mia

i havent really been someone who's been very social in the past few years, but i think it might be time to try again now that i've got this up and running.. i mainly just stopped to go to therapy but i feel like i might be ready to try existing again now that im in a bit of a better state of mind.. it took a while to really understand what being an adult means and now i think i will do my best to keep myself and my closest people first, rather than always being so irritable and dry towards everyone.. sorry if you (the reader) have ever interacted with that side of me in the past ^^"

entry #2 // testing.. (2/4/26) -rei

i really hope this looks good.. i think it does? but im really unsure.. maybe i want a divider between logs, but i dont really know that much yet.. maybe i could use an image!! ooh wait that sounds like a really good idea.. but i wont do it right now.. im tired x3

entry #1 // a new introduction (2/4/26) -emsi

hi !! im kind of only just now learning HTML, so forgive me if this site has any errors.. this is going to be my personal space from now on, away from all of the weird AI stuff and generally annoying global politics that i would rather not follow along with.. i hope one day this will all go away, but i've honestly done a pretty damn good job for myself at being able to look away from the negative and just exist by myself.. maybe one day the world will be better for all of us, but clearly some people aren't letting that happen. time will have its due date for them though, so im not too unbothered..